Water.
The most essential element of life.
As such, it bewitches, with its capacity to give and take so easily.
To bloat us with its excess, shrivel and wilt us when we are denied it, to allow us to keep our heads above it…..or drown.
The power of a tsunami shows us that the will of water always eclipses our own.
I often veer towards water in my writing but I’ve noticed it more of late and wondered if it had anything to do with the sun now being in Pisces - if you believe in astrology.
I’m never sure what I make of it.
When I ‘allow’ myself to believe in astrology - and I don’t always - I find myself strongly disliking the fact I apparently, have ‘Venus’ in ‘Pisces’.
I consider this a pathetic, drippy placement disrupting my fire party and wonder what a daring goddess I could be without it - although I’m 90% there, to be fair 😉🔥
If I wasn’t prone to the day dreaming, romanticism and brooding ‘she’ adds, damn…..I would be just……..fire, unstoppable!
So, I strive to keep ‘her’ in check a bit. Remind her she can be a bloody wet blanket and that my Aries sun is boss.
Poetry certainly pulls me into the Piscean Venus vortex. Emotions are so easily expressed in terms of liquid. They hold, surround, simmer and crash.
I am intrigued by the physical trickery of water, too. The deceit of it.
I once read a book called ‘How to read water’ which was all about looking for clues on the top as to what the rest was like. How appealing to become a ‘water detective’!
To be able to predict what lies beneath a surface is a dying and useful art.
Maybe that’s what we all strive to do with the emotions of people, too. To read them as water. Learn a person’s depth from the telling signs that pool upon their face, or master identifying spikes that fracture the smooth flow of words as ice shards.
My son has taught me a lot about this.
He has such an epic radar for emotion.
When he tells me, that talking in a certain voice makes him itch, for example, it makes me realise the connections between things most of us give little regard to.
My growing awareness of the sensitivities of others makes me pay more attention to the subtleties that compose the delivery of every single message.
“Bollocks, you’re blunt as a fucking hammer”
Pipes up my fire.
I’m gonna leave them arguing anyway……..as usual!
Lake of Stars
I found you in a lake of stars
Skin swarmed alive with bees of lace
Your voice rose up as sparkling chains
To hold me in this wondrous space
Then, peace surrounded me, a pause
Ripe ripples murmured at my feet
I loved you more, as I saw flaws
I ate your salt, freshwater sweet
I nearly fell into the void
Believed it to be really you
But stars don’t ever live in lakes
And my illusion wasn’t true
I love in waves
I love in waves, they crash and lap
A need to buoy each aimless ship
I crave the build, the crest, the drop
Feel force of life lash blue my lips
Watch foam roam restless, seethe to clear
Smash sets of gloating white teeth cliffs
Sail saline wars that nudge my fear
Cast tiny rowing boats adrift
Sunbeams tease upon the surface
Flipping silver, gleaming fish
If there’s no treasure, has it purpose?
Or is the pleasure in the wish?
The calm, the swell, the rise, the fall
I love in waves, they live in me
To sting, applaud…. to feel it all
Cannot be saved, I am the sea
Deep
Don’t speak to me in drab and grey
Of TV shows or weather
Colleagues, bills or traffic news
Or what you had for dinner
I yearn to sing you as a song
To see which candle brights you
Where do your passions voyage most?
What colour best excites you?
Which textures make you tingle gold?
Which music flicks your switches?
Which scent glitters your every nerve?
Which book has you in stitches?
Let’s swim with sharks out of our depth
Feel hearts jump ropes like crazy
Then beach upon your wildest land
Shake dreams as dew from daisies
I’ll push you on an old rope swing
That hangs above a river
We’ll leap across, just make the rocks
And clamber to new heather
I’ll feed you heart shaped sandwiches
And then we’ll make some mud pies
We’ll find a crystal waterfall
Have rapids polish jewel eyes
Tell me all you’d like to do
Let’s not conceive of limits
We’ll pull each other to our peak
Drink dawn in from bold summit
Let’s vow to never chat in tones
Of cardigans and biscuits
Of putting bins out, washing up
For that would surely risk it
Oust the zone of dog eared beige
In shallow lurks true danger
Swim out and soak with me in deep
Or else, remain a stranger
You raise an interesting question in your preamble - about whether you allow yourself to believe in Astrology. For me, belief isn’t necessary to the question of whether you find can find meaning in something. Religious texts and great works of literature are full of meaning. Do I need to believe that they depict a tangible reality to find meaning in them? Hardly.
Maybe that sort of intellectual fence-sitting comes easier to an Air-headed Aquarius. I’ve been revisiting Astrology quite a bit of late to find meaning in the changes that I feel inside and around me. I’m none the wiser - but I gather that the elites are very into it on the quiet, so maybe they know something we don’t?
Anyway, water. I’m Sun in Aquarius, Moon in Aries and Cancer rising - air, fire and water in an interplay of fuelling and dampening. But I’m also a water bearer and I can definitely relate to this. It seems to have been my job to carefully contain emotions without too much spillage - for the people I work with but for myself too so that I can do that work effectively.
So I appreciate these poems more than you can know. They have a swirling quality as they shrink to their conclusions like whirlpools around your central themes. As ever, they make me feel.
Always an added gift to hear them spoken too.
Thank for letting me ramble in your comments section.
You are my Therapist thank you