The narcissist one I’ll explain. There’s some woman I know fairly well who is billing herself as “a trauma therapist” and charging women vast amounts of money for this “service”. She isn’t trained. My friend said to me the other day “Julie she’s just turned into a complete narcissist” and filled me in on it all.
I agree about the word narcissist being misused. There’s a wide spectrum between positive self love and a full on personality disorder with abusive potential.
I love the juxtaposition of gratitude and regret that seems so central to your poems, as if neither is possible without the other. Wonderful and powerful poetry.
Love the different verses .. the mother poem ... bares the truth on how I have felt at times .. how hard it is .. being a mother I love my boys but wow they sure do test me .. you have a way of writing soulfully .. for me anyway ... keep shining 🙏🏽❤️
It’s not shameful to not feel like Mother Earth every day. To not feel grateful every damn day. We are light and shade and we must make it acceptable to express that.
You have such a wonderful talent for writing and poetry Julie, they blow my away ❤️ I wish I could write poems myself, my autistic mind is sadly only suited to structured and analytical work, I have always lacked the creativity and imagination required which is common with the diagnosis. ‘Solitary’ ‘Should never have been a Mother’ and ‘Groundhog Day’ really hit home and resonated with me. You somehow always manage to capture my own thoughts and feelings in your pieces. You have a gift with words my friend. x
Aww Thanks Nat, felt a bit fed up this morning and your words brightened me.
The mother poem - I think many women feel it but it’s still so taboo to voice it as it can be misinterpreted as not loving our offspring as well as sounding insensitive or ungrateful when we think of all those who have lost or can’t have children.
Certainly as far as I’m concerned, I love my son and would not want him elsewhere, but I do find mothering him an incredibly difficult and suffocating process. Maybe that’s partly my own expectation. I’m committed to doing the best job I can. I brought him here. I dislike responsibility hugely, but when I take it on, I don’t shirk it (which is why I hardly ever take it on).
What I’d like to do more of in my writing, is give voice to stuff like this- feelings many of us have but no-one talks about.
I completely agree with you. Such a taboo! Motherhood is sold in modern society as the most happy, rewarding job in the world when the truth is often far from it.
When I say to people that I love my boys dearly and I would do anything for them...but if I could ever live my life again with the same knowledge I have now, I would choose not to have children. People look at me like I’m a monster! They can’t believe I would admit that. Lol.
I often feel trapped and suffocated with motherhood too. I wonder if that could be also possibly be related also to the responsibility and stress of raising special needs children perhaps? Or just that we were always more free spirited?
What I have always loved about books, reading ang writing is that they allow you to make a connection to others and feeling less alone. Your pieces always achieve that 🙏🏼 x
Yes again the special/additional needs thing is hugely taboo as well. Being able to freely admit that yes, it IS absolutely more work and that not be seen as some kind of entitled ableist hate speech.
What you say about my pieces brightens me. I was trying to explain to someone the other day - who accused me of wanting my ego massaged🤬 - that it’s connection and community I truly care about.
Absolutely. I remember Brené Brown saying in one of her Ted talks that ‘connection is why we’re here: it gives purpose and meaning to our lives.’ I wholeheartedly agree ❤️ x
I cannot use my name on there anymore as suspended for sharing ivermectin stuff . I just altered my surname and started again. Now I can talk about it and more freely as long as I don't use certain words lol. I do love the community aspect of it too.
The narcissist one I’ll explain. There’s some woman I know fairly well who is billing herself as “a trauma therapist” and charging women vast amounts of money for this “service”. She isn’t trained. My friend said to me the other day “Julie she’s just turned into a complete narcissist” and filled me in on it all.
I agree about the word narcissist being misused. There’s a wide spectrum between positive self love and a full on personality disorder with abusive potential.
Everyone is labelled “narc” or “empath” these days.🙄
Ditto “gaslighter” 🙄-another massively overused word.
You are fantastic writer and person. Hugely missed on twitter ❤️👍
I miss it massively myself. The sense of community I felt there. Thank you 😊
I love the juxtaposition of gratitude and regret that seems so central to your poems, as if neither is possible without the other. Wonderful and powerful poetry.
Thank you. I think my moods swing between the two. The futility is often eclipsed in the most blinding way.
I am either down in the dumps or high as a kite - rarely in the middle.
Love the different verses .. the mother poem ... bares the truth on how I have felt at times .. how hard it is .. being a mother I love my boys but wow they sure do test me .. you have a way of writing soulfully .. for me anyway ... keep shining 🙏🏽❤️
But people daren’t voice these feelings do they?
No more!
It’s not shameful to not feel like Mother Earth every day. To not feel grateful every damn day. We are light and shade and we must make it acceptable to express that.
Thank you lovely x
You have such a wonderful talent for writing and poetry Julie, they blow my away ❤️ I wish I could write poems myself, my autistic mind is sadly only suited to structured and analytical work, I have always lacked the creativity and imagination required which is common with the diagnosis. ‘Solitary’ ‘Should never have been a Mother’ and ‘Groundhog Day’ really hit home and resonated with me. You somehow always manage to capture my own thoughts and feelings in your pieces. You have a gift with words my friend. x
Aww Thanks Nat, felt a bit fed up this morning and your words brightened me.
The mother poem - I think many women feel it but it’s still so taboo to voice it as it can be misinterpreted as not loving our offspring as well as sounding insensitive or ungrateful when we think of all those who have lost or can’t have children.
Certainly as far as I’m concerned, I love my son and would not want him elsewhere, but I do find mothering him an incredibly difficult and suffocating process. Maybe that’s partly my own expectation. I’m committed to doing the best job I can. I brought him here. I dislike responsibility hugely, but when I take it on, I don’t shirk it (which is why I hardly ever take it on).
What I’d like to do more of in my writing, is give voice to stuff like this- feelings many of us have but no-one talks about.
Glad I could make you smile this morn 😘
I completely agree with you. Such a taboo! Motherhood is sold in modern society as the most happy, rewarding job in the world when the truth is often far from it.
When I say to people that I love my boys dearly and I would do anything for them...but if I could ever live my life again with the same knowledge I have now, I would choose not to have children. People look at me like I’m a monster! They can’t believe I would admit that. Lol.
I often feel trapped and suffocated with motherhood too. I wonder if that could be also possibly be related also to the responsibility and stress of raising special needs children perhaps? Or just that we were always more free spirited?
What I have always loved about books, reading ang writing is that they allow you to make a connection to others and feeling less alone. Your pieces always achieve that 🙏🏼 x
Yes again the special/additional needs thing is hugely taboo as well. Being able to freely admit that yes, it IS absolutely more work and that not be seen as some kind of entitled ableist hate speech.
What you say about my pieces brightens me. I was trying to explain to someone the other day - who accused me of wanting my ego massaged🤬 - that it’s connection and community I truly care about.
Absolutely. I remember Brené Brown saying in one of her Ted talks that ‘connection is why we’re here: it gives purpose and meaning to our lives.’ I wholeheartedly agree ❤️ x
I cannot use my name on there anymore as suspended for sharing ivermectin stuff . I just altered my surname and started again. Now I can talk about it and more freely as long as I don't use certain words lol. I do love the community aspect of it too.
I can really resonate with Groundhog day. Thank you. 🙌🏻
I feel your pain, mate. Some days at least, not always. Thank goodness. It’s the diamond days I live for. :)
I know. I'm the same, we are getting better at riding the waves! It's all good.
That’s the spirit. We’re skilled surfers….😂😂
Cue the Hawaii 50 music 🎶 😊
I love him to bits and would not be without my son now, but it’s bloody hard some days, isn’t it? Xx