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Julie Dee's avatar

I’m not trying to glamourise it btw. Of course I now realise it was a dumb thing to be involved with. Just thinking back to how it felt back then - exciting.

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Tracy's avatar

It was a joy ride mixed with melancholy- captured so well. 🙏🏼✨✨

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Julie Dee's avatar

Thank you 😊

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Christian Thompson's avatar

That was a heady reverie of nostalgia, metaphor and wisdom. Thank you. So many brilliant turns of phrase. Nicotine Childhood could be an obscure indie band from the Peel Sessions.

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Julie Dee's avatar

Yes 😂😂Thanks. I tried to write it as a story but then remembered not much actually happened. In many ways it was a non event. Yet at the same time, so vivid. Much of life is like that isn’t it? Anyway, I changed ‘story’ to ‘memory’ and it seemed to fit better.

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TheArmchairDweller's avatar

Experience comes from doing everything your parents told you not to do… sometimes you have to live on the wild side for a bit to appreciate the quiet one.

PS. I love the stone roses but they aren’t a patch on GNR. You were bang on there…Exquisite taste! 😂

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Julie Dee's avatar

As I got older I learned to love The Stone Roses and Happy Mondays too. I think the clothes put me off at the time. I didn’t really like that ‘baggy’ look.

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TheArmchairDweller's avatar

Yeah I know what you mean. It had that feral, unwashed look that came with being a fan 😂😂

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Rachel Mardle's avatar

Being alive :)

I don’t have any similar experiences which is a bit sad really! About the nearest was accepting a lift (well having to get in the car as my friend had already accepted!) from two total teenage strangers we met at the fair. I remember the whole journey thinking ‘please be normal people and not rapists or murderers!’ , it was fine of course! I have always played life a big too safe in some respects :D

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Julie Dee's avatar

I think risk is a healthy component of life. Maybe that’s wha all risk takers say until the come a cropper, though.

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Rachel Mardle's avatar

Aha ! Yes x

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Deborah T. Hewitt's avatar

Oh the thrill. If for a stupid minute. I had an English boyfriend at 18, right off the boat. He had a street bike, the kind that lays down on curves. He was exciting and he was awful. I won't say more - but I do get the thrill. Until you wake up and realize you could have died.

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Julie Dee's avatar

Yes, it could have ended a lot worse than it did. Youth eh?

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Jo-Ann Petrarca's avatar

Oh teen life, I have no regrets from those days. I swear they were the best years. Thank you Julie, this was so enjoyable.

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Julie Dee's avatar

Thank you Jo-Ann. I often feel like my life ended at 25. So little has happened since then. I tell myself things will be exciting again one day. (Not that I want to be doing that you understand 😂).

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Jo-Ann Petrarca's avatar

I understand that Julie and although I’m older, I still crave excitement once in awhile. Seriously, I’m an elder but I’m not dead!!!

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M H's avatar

This reminds me of one time in my youth being a bit of a wild child my pals and me met these guys and one of them had a car.We were impressed big time and they were into fast driving.We came home safely.Your story jogged my memory of that night.l think at sixteen, l thought l was invincible.😂 x.

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Julie Dee's avatar

We do stupid things don’t we? I have done many. Glad you got back safely.

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