Melancholy poems for a snowy afternoon

Snowflake

I caught a snowflake on my tongue

A shame it didn’t want to stay

But perfect never settled long

And so it had to melt away

Sometimes, all we can hold dear

Is but a speck of fleeting bliss

We notice, then it disappears

Our skin still tingling from the kiss

How is it fair, that we endure

Cold truths on roofs that knit with sky

Meadows dredged with ivory pure

Stone walls that shawl in wintry cry

I see the cream of rolling hills

The weep of bright that stains the dale

The weight of white on window sills

The sweep of nature’s bridal veil

It sticks, it builds, resets the green

It silences the march of time

For one sweet second on my lips

I tasted it, the peace was mine

No-one wants to know your soul

No-one wants to know your soul

The place you go to when you fall

Learn to sing your aching hymn

Lift husks of every Russian doll

The chasm of your mirror, begs

To plunge them to a toothache night

Absorb your torture as their own

Know lemon demons that you fight

The acid eating you alive

Black tongue of truth, green teeth of grief

The bleach you used to cleanse and rinse

Foul taste of every rotten mouth

The septic angst, it festers deep

In recesses and hidden coves

The blisters -  hissing, feral cats

Fattened on each corpse of love

Torches spotlight slaveish dogs

In kennel eyes, they wait for bones

Pleading for a patient nurse

To calm their howls, take them home

I wish

I wish I didn’t love you

It takes up so much of my time

Dreaming, crying, wondering

Imagining you’re mine

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I wish I hadn’t heard your voice

Or known your searching eyes

That I didn’t want to kiss your lips

Above all other prize

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I wish I wasn’t haunted

By the things that you once said

My tightening chest can never rest

Words nest as vultures in my head

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I wish I’d never known you

For it feels way too cruel a fate

To yearn for what I cannot have

Destined to wish and wait