I was asked to contribute something to my friend’s Halloween themed creativity thread this evening, and found myself finishing off this poem below (Raven).
Often, poems or bits of writing, sit as pieces of cast-on knitting. I have many half done sleeves knocking about…..
I started remembering other older stuff I’d written that lent itself well to this genre.
Halloween, hey?
Often, I feel like a ghost. Maybe many of us do. Part of us here - moving, functioning whilst our true self watches on from a higher plane.
Dual lives. Our fantasy. Our reality.
Then there’s the idea of restlessness. Of being haunted, taunted by people from our past or ideas we can’t let go of…. They are the ‘zombies’ that won’t lay still. They keep coming back.
So, here are a few pieces I found relating to things of this nature, starting with the new one.
I must warn you, some of these do get a little melodramatic…..
You know what I’m like though.
Raven
5am, I’m staring…
At my favourite tethered bird
Your suffering eyes pierce through
Like a dramatic song I heard
The notes of you, they lift me
Before they crash right down
The rollercoaster climb of joy
Awaiting smash of ground
I wish that I was soaring
I wish you were my air
Inhaling all my birthdays
On your raven’s wing and prayer
But we stalled like ghosts in lift shafts
Our time flew into a jar
An earthly cage of pent up rage
At odds with where souls are.
The Overdue Meeting
Let’s reconvene the meeting
So your ghouls can sip my blood
We can thaw iced conversation
If you dare to greet the flood
I’ll herd poor recollections
Scatter words, beloved jewels
As you smash up our reflection
To spoon the shards to feed my fool
Ghosts
The sepia rejection ribs,
Like mustard coloured toast
Chafing ego’s fondest portrait
As a thin unbuttoned ghost
And she passes on the stairs,
I sometimes meet her in the night
And we hug and cling and struggle
And we scratch and kiss and fight
Oh…she plays me as a violin aches violet to the moon
Dipping every dusty angel in patchouli oil perfume
Then we swallow, go to bed,
Tight and taut with sweet disease
And we’ll wallow til the dawn
Will raise us fraught with silver freeze
What we carry, is our swollen heart
In body and on sleeve
Phantom lovers on our shoulder
Stubbornly refuse to leave
Dark roses on the grave of love
April’s child knots moth violas
In hidden ditch of passion’s place
Making necklaces for bruises
Of each curse that she must face
Dusk crows…. a spurned and jaded cockerel,
Searching for her endless morn
My lily ghost mows merry shadows
On memory’s alabaster lawn
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I’ve come to lay dark roses
Pay my cordial respects
For the last time….until next time
And the next time and the next….
.
Come closer, fated love of mine
Let mince earth gravel my esteem
Watch me rock our rotting infant
In the crib of jagged dreams
You drove our flaming chariot
To a burnt molasses end
Nailed our crosses to your festering post
At mercy of harsh wind
Do you feel me freeze, in crushing rags?
Lashing breeze churning your salt
Fairies gagged by mocking gargoyles
Demons pointing to my fault
My voice splits as your oozing kill
I wail hanged song to the abyss
It’s time to leave, I’ve had my fill
I vow you taste my damson kiss.
Phantom Life
My heart stalked each room as if pacing an eerie haunted house. And - as I imagined it would be for a ghost - there was a feeling of both connection and disconnection.
I remembered the emotions, yet no longer had capacity to feel.
I wore old love as a dead bride’s veil.
I came to know the clumsy distortion of touch you feel through thick woolly gloves.
But I wasn’t a ghost…..I craved skin.
The phrase is to ‘fall out of love’, but it’s more that you fall into something. Another space that isn’t love. The movie is still there with the same characters but the colour has drained. And it keeps fading and fading, until one day, you see someone on the screen, an empty, cheerless shell in this terrible, dull film, and fail to recognise it………as you.
Why’d you have to be so good?
When I have written poetry, I am too self-conscious to let it live in the open! Good for you. I think you have a gift.